I want to be creative. I want to be good at creating. I started this blog as a way to be creative, but I haven’t written a post in months. It’s already October, and this is my first blog post of the year.
failing
I have all these great big ideas of things I want to do and what I want to create, but I am so bad at follow through. Years ago, probably at least 10 years ago, I decided that I want to start blogging. And throughout the years, I’ve started so many blogs…and given up on so many blogs. If I had been consistent for the past 10 years, I would probably have a very extensive blog. But, I give up after a few weeks. The excitement wears off and I just stop. I started this blog over a year ago. It’s been over a year, and I only have 5 blog posts.
When I started, I wanted to post every single day. I have the time to write one post a day. I have a whole bunch of ideas on what to write about, and my husband has a running list of all the post ideas that we’ve come up with over time. But I am just not disciplined or motivated enough to do it.
I’ve also wanted to start making YouTube videos. I made 3, and then very quickly lost motivation to make more. They were a lot of fun, and it was really nice going out to pretty places and looking for the best vistas.
Then, I wanted to be good at photography and started an instagram account to try to post pretty pictures that I’ve taken. But, yet again, I gave up after just a short amount of time.
why now?
Last night, we were watching a YouTube video by a creator who is a full-time content creator. I realized that I was sad because that’s the life that I want. I want to be traveling and creating videos that inspire other people. I want to be writing posts that people actually read and that help people. I want to share all the great things I find with other people.
I don’t want to just go day in and day out sequestered to myself and the few people I see everyday. I want to make things that reach people.
It seems like there are so many people online who have the lifestyle that I want so much. I’d like to at least try.
what now?
I had previously given myself too hard of a goal: writing one blog post everyday. But that’s not really feasible. Instead, I’ll aim for one every week, but if I have time, I’ll try to write more. It’ll be good to just decide to so something and then do it. So I’m deciding now, I have to write one blog post every week.
I am also deciding to make instagram posts more consistently. I take so many photos of the places we visit, and then I don’t do anything with them. Now, I need to go through and actually post them.
I hope this time it sticks and I don’t lose motivation again.
See you next time!
June